A year ago....... / Stormy (Sister) .....My world fell apart because you were no longer in it. I've dealt with so much since then and now that today is your anniversary, I feel exactly the way I felt a year ago...pain is a deep and powerful experience...I just feel really lost right now. But I just want to let you know that I love you so much and miss you everyday. So, until we meet again...you're safe in my heart.
Love you, Stormy Lea
Son/ John's Mom
I can't believe it's been a whole year!! Without a doubt the worst year of our lives. Not a day has passed that I haven't thought of you. Not a day has passed that I haven't missed you. Not a day has passed that I haven't cried.
Some days the guilt nearly eats me alive that I didn't realize that day what you intended. I still can't even imagine it. I didn't see you, they wouldn't let me, but sometimes when I close my eyes I can see in my mind how it must have been. How it must have looked. How it must have hurt. The very thoughts grip my heart until I can't breathe.
Oh my John, I KNOW that now your in a happy place where nothing can harm you. I pray every day that the Lord will hold you near to Him. I KNOW that one day you and I and all our family will be together again. One thing I do know is that now I'm not afraid to die, because I will see you again and I want that so much. My heart is so heavy my son. I miss you so much. I didn't know that such pain existed until this year.
I've heard people say that if anything happened to one of their children, they would just die. I'm here to tell them that they won't die. They will just want to so bad!! I know I have wanted to die. Just to see your dear face. I love you son. Now and forever.
Mom
Patricia thinking of you / Katrina
Dear Patricia my heart goes out to U. I hope you are surrounded by loved ones today. I pray they your handsome son shows you how close he is and that he is happy and set free. Natasha and the other angels are together watching us. I beleive we who are united on earth now have our angels united in heaven. They seek out their mothers and families friends who have angels and they watch out for us all.
I am thinking of you all day today, know that my heart and thoughts are with you,
Love Katrina
Happy Fall John with Love! / Melissa Eiler (~Angel Friend~ )
Sweet John..may treasured memories fill the hearts of your loving family and friends to bring comfort and peace on you Angel Anniversary
the daY you left / Katrina
when you left
The sky turned to grey, the flowers didn’t bloom and their was no moon, the days turned to nights, the nights turned to days, I wasn’t there, I didn’t know. Winter came then fall then summer I didn’t know, People walked people , people talked I didn’t know, The grass grew, the wind blew, it even rained. I didn’t know, All I knew was the sun didn’t shine without you, the flowers didn’t grow with out you, I need you like the day needs the sun and the earth needs the rain, Without you, How do I live my life with out you.
Remembering/ John's Mom
Yesterday was Andy's first day of school. Walking him to class brought back memories of walking you to your Kindergarten class for the first time almost 30 years ago.
The first day you cried hard when I had to leave you. I felt like crying too. The second day you only cried a little. The third day you didn't cry and the fourth day you ran ahead of me to your classroom so glad to be there. I was so proud of you!!
You were such a sweet little boy. I miss those days so much. I didn't realize then those days were the summer of my life. I wish people realized how important those days that sometimes seem so impossible to get through are.
I love you son and miss you everyday.
Mom
John/ Katrina
John You are my night in shining armer, You make me feel that my tash is safe , I know you will look after her in heaven even though its such a nicer safer place than here on earth. I picture you two playing in gardens that must be so beautiful and smiling now that you are free.
Patricia , I cried when I saw your tribute. Wouldnt it have been wonderful if they met here on earth then they would maybe have never had to leave so early, but I guess god had other plans. They must be too needed up there I guess. . What a beautiful tribute. My tears are running as I love it so much. I am going to try and write to you. I think we are going to need each other.
Hugs to you r family and all who loved this wonderful young man.
Love Katrina
We Remember Them / Karen Hall (Kassie Hall's mom )
In the rising of the sun and its going down, We remember them
In the blowing of the wind and in the chill of winter, We remember them
In the opening of the buds and in the rebrith of spring, We remember them
In the blueness of the sky and in the warmth of summer, We remember them
In the rustling of the leaves and in the beauty of autumn,
We remember them
In the beginning of the year and when it ends, We remember when
When we are weary and in need of strength, We remember them
When we are lost and sick at heart, We remember them
When we have joy we yearn to share, We remember them
So long as we live, they too shall live, For they are now a part of us, As we remember them
simply..../ Kacey Berry (family friend )
i love each and every one of ya'll... you're not "like my family" you guys ARE my family... you're all family to each and every one of us.
just simply put... i love you all.
and pat, i meant it when i said if i had to choose a mom, you're the very next person besides my own... besides momma you are the BEST one i know. I have thought that since i was 8 staying w/ amber... crushing on the guys up the road, teasing our hair, and watching Days of Our Lives, and I still think it almost 20 years later as I become a wife and mom myself....
again.. I love you each so dearly... forever and ever
thinking of you Patricia / Katrina (angel friend )
Just wanted to say that Ive been thinking of you. I havent lit many candles lately as the depression really is hard. Its 10 months for us. I cant beleive it. I am dreading when September comes. I am scared already. I dont know why. This year has gone in a blink I cant remember any of it except for pure pain and agony. How can 10 months go by so fast. Tash showed a sign the other day. So I kow our angels are close by. I wish they were closer so we could actually hold them. I wonder how they are doing up there. I can truly see them happy so ,why am I sad.
Sending you and all your family big hugs and lots of love
Peace & Love / Cheryl ^Jeremy^ Radford (Connected by Angels )
Sending Peace & Love
on the wings of a Snow White Dove
to John and and all who love and miss him
Tears/ Cheryl -. Mum To Jeremy Radford (Connected by Angels )
Tears are delightful expressions Of happiness, sorrow, and love, Made to release deep emotions, A special gift sent from above.
When seeing sweet thoughts of a loved one Midst memories of days of old, A tear finds a cheek in the moonlight As thoughts reach deep in the soul.
In moments of anger, frustrations and grief, When happy thoughts flee like a thief, Running away with our hopes and our cares, A tear brings welcome relief.
If unwanted sorrow consumes us And life seems so hard to bear, With time a soul is healed, Restored with the help of a tear.
Sun and beauty bring health to the soul Through all of the days of our lives, Deepest feelings of thanks are expressed Through tears which appear in our eyes.
Be grateful for tears for their presence Restores our most glorious thoughts Of laughter, compassion and loving, The most precious gifts of all.
Author Unknown
I haven't done this is a while...............-. / Stormy (Sister) Hey bro, I know I haven't been by here in a while....but don't think I'm not thinking of you...I think of you everyday. I miss you so much and I hate your not being here. I saw the baby, he nice, I wasn't sure what to think though, not sure what to think yet. I try and feel for you, to see if your there...sometimes I think I can...I'll hear lil sounds outside my room when I come home at night...like someone is outside my room...I hope its you, sticking around to make sure we're okay. Life is hard and sometimes I wish I was with you instead of here. I just hope you know, I'm not mad at you, not anymore...and I understand and accept what you did, even if it still hurts. I hope your proud of me, I'm trying really hard to get by..but life is hard. Growing up is hard, and you being gone is hard. But remember John, I carry you with me everyday...in my heart. I love you and I miss you!
"Thinking of the day. When you went away. What a life to take. What a bond to break. I'll be missing you."
Love always,
Stormy-Lea
Johns Family / Katrina Natashas Mum
To all Johns family and loved ones . I just want to say That you all loved John so so much . Your tributes to him are so beautiful.
His demons are gone and he has no more pain, But its still not fare. Why are questions that will remain forever. We are left here to wonder and mourn and wish life was so different.
I am sending you all hugs and hope that he will show you how close he really is.
Love Katrina
just thinkin about ya / Misty Ermatinger (sister)
just was thinking about you. i miss and love you so much. i just wish i could give you a big hug and tell ya i love ya, but i think you're around here somewhere. especially when im on the internet and you cut my electricity off. miss and love you. your sis............misty
just thinkin about ya / Misty Ermatinger (sister)
just was thinking about you. i miss and love you so much. i just wish i could give you a big hug and tell ya i love ya, but i think you're around here somewhere. especially when im on the internet and you cut my electricity off. miss and love you. your sis............misty
Never forgotten sweet angel. Love to your family / Susan, Mom To Angel Kurt Cleaver
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